what a new year!

so many things running through my head in the end of 2008. so many. in my heart, i am really having a tough time at that period. seriously. but entering to this year, i really gave up everything. everything to Him. yeah.

so many want last year. but nvr carry out.
but for this year, i want to classify the want and must. the must is a must to do. want is not important.

must number 1,
to go school and study hard everyday.

i am now, on the verge of scolding all the vulgarity now. seriously. i almost go out of control. i will kill ppl one. sian diao. i felt so bad. i want to just prove my school mate wrong. gotten my support from God and cell members like cha. but whats the point, even my own family look down on me.

to think about this, i am sad. ulterly sad. i just punched the wall. this time, i seriously punched. lol, now my nukled hurts. man, i like transfer the pain. haha. okie.

seriously. sad sia. haixz. wanted to post about my plans for this year:) but haixz. failed. destroyed.

I will now need to pick up myself, and stand up and walk.
red bull give you wings?
neh, MY GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH!

although i am abit sad now, but i thank God for being good, man, i donno what will happen if i smash the glass bottle into my bro head. (okie, he was out of range(toliet)me in livingroom) i thank God for that.

things will change. i know it! so much to say, but i want to keep my blog short and sweet:)okie, not that short.HAHA!!!

man, i am weird, just now was so pissed, now i laughting at my own joke. what sia davin.LOL

God bless,
1.37am
2/1/08