Facing my giant

i have not blog for a long time.
Reason was not that i am busy, but rather i am afraid to face the giant in me.

I want to go all out for God.
I want to change totally for God.
I do not want to leave by name.
I want to leave by action.

I can say all this. BUT I HAVE NOT BEEN DOING.

Every time i read my own blog. I feel that i can do much more.
Like today.
I told myself that i want to do my Qt in the morning but i haven't done yet.
I told myself that i want to sleep at 12am but i am still awake now, 5.30am.

I told myself i do not want to fall into sin. I promised God, Yet i fall.
God i need your strength.

My parent may look down on me, but you wont. I will listen to you. I will draw strength from you to continue to read your word.

Changing may be hard. But i believe that you are with me and want to lead me to the best pathway of my life. Yeah. I will not care about what other think about me for i have you.

from today onward, once i finish my Qt, i will blog it down. I have trouble reporting my Qt. Yeah. Whenever i am feeling down, i will read my blog and review that you are very real in my life.

My dream is to be a missionary for God. Using whatever talent i got for Him.

I WANT TO DARE ALL THOSE NON-CHRISTIAN,
DONT SAY CHIRSTIANITY IS NONSENSE WHEN YOU HAVE NOT TESTED AND PROVEN.
I DARE YOU TO READ THE BIBLE AND FIND ME THE FLAW IN THE BIBLE. I WILL ANSWER ANY QUESTION IF YOU CAN FIND ONE.

I want to be like encho. To have a close relationship with God for 300years.
I want that. I will sleep now. I am tired. I need strength.

Thanks to all for your care and concerned, You all make me want to live a joyful life. Thanks all. i will try my best to change.

God, I will be a Doer and a Prayer. Thanks you God.